Friend

What are friends for?

Rhetorical question, eh?

Well… I just had a 30 minute, relatively short time for friend-to-friend talk, with a friend. I told him things I need to sort out. Things that I didn’t tell anyone yet. I think I overburdened him with what I said. I think he is now questioning if we were actually that close.

But what do I do when I don’t have much other options?

I stood as a pillar where my friends lean on. That was like that for a long time and remained that way. Well… the pillar is shaking now; pushing the people who were leaning away. The people already found other pillars to lean on. Where can I lean on?

This is one of the reasons why I envy those people who lived in one place for their whole entire lives. They have friends that knew them since their childhoods. There is no secret between them. Just being together is enough. There is no awkward silence (nothing directed at you Daniela: we are not awkward silence people ;) ) between them. There are no calculations being made to satisfy each other. They simply… are what they are.

Some people envied me for traveling to various places and living in various places. I do accept that privileges came with such opportunities. I’m trilingual, I have many friends that I can contact and meet up with when I’m visiting many parts of the world. But directly around me, I’m not sure if I can continue to make great friendships.

After all, we do say our farewells when the time comes. Before that time comes, I wish to be of a greater help than a burden. I wish to help the people near me and support them rather than requiring their support. But right now, I wish for others’ supports. I need somewhere to lean on. I think I need a friend right now. I almost have a desire to duplicate myself to become my own friend.

I constantly tell myself that time will tell, time will heal, and time will cure. But it seems like time is moving at a rate that is way too fast for me, yet have no effect. Time is rushing past me, yet I don’t feel the telling, healing nor the curing.

Sleep. It’s one way to escape reality. But sleeping time is time lost. Away from reality. Doesn’t take part in the “time will help.” Yet reality hurts. There are simply way too many things going on in reality.

I guess I’m really looking forward to spring break. It has already begun for me. I’m leaving my current life area. I’ll go and breathe. Maybe that will help.

Going away to Aruba for a week.

Maybe that will help. Maybe that will help. Just maybe…

CMU Life

Monday was full of things. Statistics exam, Cognitive Psychology exam, Sound Recording (which I expected to be ending early, but it didn’t and ended not much earlier than the usual 9:30 pm), bubble tea, many conversations, etc.

Today, however, was quite weird. It just flew past by. Nothing much has happened except that I accompanied Jennifer to the Waterfront when she got herself a new phone. Droid. Quite interesting. I should have gotten an android phone too. Blackberries are overrated. The 64 mb limit on apps is ridiculous.

Arghhhhhh week (Today = Monday)

Monday
nothing special, class until 9:30 pm as usual due to sound recording.
Currently planning on finishing Statistics homework. Hating minitab.

Tuesday
Programming exam review
study for the programming exam
Finish 5 programming labs, which I’m behind.

Wednesday
Programming exam
Statistics homework due
Have to read content for Cognitive Psychology exam on Monday
Sound Recording class + extra hour and half for a “make up day”

Thursday
Pick up Statistics HW during lab
Try to finish up on Sound Recording projects 2 and 3

Friday
Sound recording projects 1st draft due
Read world history stuff that I’m behind in (about two books)

Saturday
Clean up the Sound Recording projects to perfection for hand in on Monday
Start on the world history paper

Sunday
Finish world history paper
Study for cognitive psychology exam on Monday
Study for Statistics exam on Monday
Last minute touches on Sound Recording projects 2 and 3 that’s due at 9:00am Monday

Monday
Statistics Exam
World History paper due
Cognitive Psychology Exam

wow. The next seven days of my life is disgusting looking. I guess it could be worse, but the readings are going to kill me. I thought I was a science type of guy, but this semester, whew… readings after readings after readings. Probably have to read around 400+ pages this week and study them. Oh, tech stuff is here too! I almost forgot: 5 labs and a programming exam. Lovely. FML.

Final Exam Schedules

My schedule is dreadful.

I have an exam on the second week.

FML

here it is:

Tuesday May 4 5:30 - 8:30 pm : Statistics
Thursday May 6 8:30 - 11:30 am : World History
Friday May 7 1:00 - 4:00 pm : Global Studies
Friday May 7 5:30 - 8:30 pm : Cognitive Psychology
Monday May 10 8:30 - 11:30 am : Programming

펜트하우스 코끼리

Penthouse Elephant.

방금 펜트하우스 코끼리를 봤다.

처음에는 이상한 장면들만 잔뜩 나오고… -0-

장혁의 손가락 자르는 연기는… -_-;;;

미친듯이 어디서든지 —하는 성형외과 의사

잘나가는 교민이 한국와서 성형외과 의사 부인이랑 불륜.

세명이 다 제일 친한 친구

그 부인이랑 장혁은 친오빠/친동생 사이.

등장하는 사람들 반 정도는 정신병자들.

뭔가 많은것을 표현하려고 한듯한 영화. 너무 많은 것을 표현 하다가 하나도 제대로 표현 못하고 끝난 영화. 그래도 영화는 잘 찍은듯. 내용은 별로 그닥. 무슨 내용인지 잘 모르겠지만, 되게 이쁘게 찍은것 같다. 정신병자가 정신과 의사인 척 하는 여자 빼고는 다 연기도 그럭저럭 하고. 장자연이 나와서 자살해서 뭔가… 좀… 그랬던..

모르겠고… 요즘 영화 많이 보는데.. 이번거는 Stay다음으로 이상하네..

기회가 된다면 Stay보세요! 추천! -_-

30 Days until Aruba!

OMG. 30 Days left….

Aruba is near!

Twitter Account

My twitter account is mind boggling. I have no idea as to why I’m getting 5 to 10 new followers everyday. I don’t post any interesting stuff. I basically talk to my friends over Twitter. Yes, I’m that one weird user who tweets about what he had for breakfast.

Why would anyone be interested in what I do in my life, except for my friends?

So weird.

15121

introduction to database structures.

AHHHHHH!

I’m very much regretting for not putting in much interest in Java during high school. I couldn’t care less about making minesweeper with java. Heck, just load it on a windows machine!

version 5.1

Yeah… I changed my theme. I was just getting bored with the white simplicity.

Hope you guys like it. I like the colorfulness.

PS. How do I get to put in the disqus comments inside the color bars? I don’t like the “No comments” sticking out in white background. I tried changing the css code to have transparent background, but that don’t seem to work. ARGH

Cross off things you’ve done in your life.

Graduated High School.
Kissed someone.
Smoked cigarettes.
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
Lied to someone.
Been dumped.
Snorted cocaine.
Failed a class.
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Cut yourself.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Had detention.
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Had an online diary.
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
And a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world.
Voted for American/Australian Idol.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Overdosed.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Petted a wild animal.
Used a credit card.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A’s.
Been on the Honor Roll.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Had a party while your parents weren’t home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.

Sourced from: seoulite

Ticket back home

Yes! I bought the ticket to go home this Christmas! Finally!

It’s amazing how airlines would take advantage of you during winter seasons… With only two major options to go to Colombia from Pittsburgh, things have been quite annoying.

Delta has flights that go through New York and Atlanta… But apparently many people go to NYC from Colombia… and Delta is the only airline that offers service to Atlanta from Colombia.
What does that mean? High Price.

Continental has flights that go through New York and Houston. But apprently many people go to NYC from Colombia (as mentioned above) and Continental is the only airline that offers service to Houston from Colombia.
What does that mean? High Price.

The cheapest ticket that I found was American Airlines, but it required two stops and 18 hour transit time in Miami. WTF. And this crap schedule cost around $900. WTF.

Continental’s cheapest ticket was a price around $1000, with two stops in Houston and Panama City. Total duration of the trip? Somewhere around 28 hours or way too short for any customs time.
Oh! did I mention that I’m finally an elite member in Continental? I joined it only a year ago and I’m a silver elite member already! yay! So I decided to use continental, but the price is waaaaaaaaaay too high. The highest, in fact. I’ll just start adding mileage to my newly made Delta account now.
Oh yeah! I have another 50000 miles in Korean Air… only that I don’t go to Korea anymore… arrrgh… Can’t I move all those miles to Delta? They’re both in Skyteam… Speaking of which, why did Continental have to go to Star Alliance?! Whatevz… I’m just doing the whole entire thing over again in Delta now…

So my last option was to go with Delta where the cheapest ticket was around $900 but picked the one stop itinerary which cost $1150. I’m flying through New York on the way down and flying through Atlanta on the way up.

….

……..

…………$1150 for a ticket to BOGOTA from PITTSBURGH?!

When Ji came to visit in May she paid $350 to come to Bogota from JFK…

Anyway… Airlines can go die for taking advantage of people going back home to see their families during the holidays.